Vapor

        When we were kids we were always running around in the playground endlessly. We were energetic and never get tired. I remember those days when my mom brings me to swimming lessons during summer breaks and I just kept on swimming. After the class at home, I went straight to my playmates and play. When I got older one physical activity or exercise would be enough for me just to lay on the sofa and rest and watch television.

        During my teenage years not only I got a chance to play with my playmates but also got more time and freedom to meet new people. From my daily routine of school – play – sleep became school – play- hangout – sleep. I added social life in my lifestyle. Instead of becoming more tired. It energizes me to meet people, play basketball, volunteer at the ministry.

        

        After several years unto adulthood. I maintained my weekly routine. My lifestyle. When I arrived here in Calgary and played basketball with the younger kids. I noticed something. That they were significantly faster than me. When I was guarding one of the guys, I had to make extra effort to really defend him. After few days I played again with other kids. And I experienced the same thing. Upon pondering, I realized that I'm aging. I'm getting older. It's not only that they were faster. But I was actually slower.

Aging is inevitable for us as humans. It is part of who we are. Signs of aging include the weakening of us. Our senses start to decline. Our bodies become frail and easily get tired over time.

        When people talk about aging it is most often paired with the element of time. Whenever our family visits family-friends the conversation alludes to how fast time is upon seeing how the kids have grown.

Psalm 39:4-5, “O Lord, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting I am! Behold, you have made my days a few hand-breadths, and my lifetime is as nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath!”.

        How fleeting my life is. This verse makes me ponder and pause. I did some reflection in my life. It feels like images and videos when I was young flash in my eyes. Going to school, to taekwondo practice on weekends, to Sunday school, to our youth events. I truly realize and can say, “It feels just like yesterday”.

We ought to make every moment counts. Not wasting it away. Making the right decisions. “YOLO”. You only live once thus live it wisely not to waste the temporal time here on earth. The Amplified bible shares a picture of vapor. Man's life is just like a vapor.

        If that's the case I would want to live my life to the full. Taking every moment to use my remaining time here on what am I supposed to do? What I am designed to do. My purpose in my life. The purpose of my life. My calling. There's nowhere I can find that – but only through the bible. Through walking with God, trusting him on what he wants me to do. His will not on my own will. His ways and not my ways. It means that my hope is only to him.

“But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you. (v.7)”

        Upon acknowledging that “... my life span is nothing from [his] perspective (v.5)”. I can only assure you that I can put my full trust unto God. With this discovery, I'm fully convinced that I'm designed to look for God. In my temporal life where I shouldn't be looking for anything else other than God. Not the pursuit of wealth, nor fame, nor power, nor anything in this whole wide world. For nothing can satisfy my contentment other than God. 

    How do you spend your day? Or your week? Are you spending it as if you are pretending you have plenty of time? Or do you acknowledge that our time is limited and we ought not to waste it? Do you spend your time that wisely reflects your hope in God?